Adoption Setback

Last Friday we got some devastating news about our adoption plans. As it stands right now, we will have a 3 year waiting period until we can proceed any futher. To say we are heartbroken is an understatement. Right now there are many more questions than answers. If we simply wanted more children, bearing in mind our past experiences, we could easily have them biologically. But, the Lord placed adopting a child from Uganda on our hearts over 2 years ago, and we feel as though we have followed the Lord each and every step along the way, only to be brought to this painful waiting period.

We have been told that this experience can be compared to a late-term miscarriage. As much as I know about pregnancies, birth and children, I couldn't agree more. This precious child had a quilt being made by her Mama, a journal we wrote to her in, and a huge place carved out of our hearts that could only be filled by her. We're trying with all our might to trust in this promise:

He heals the brokenhearted And binds up their wounds. Psalm 147:3

Unfortunately or fortunately, after over 7 months of already being in this process, we just a couple days earlier decided to share our plans with more than our family and close friends via this blog and facebook only to learn two days later of our setback.

We've only had a week to process all of this and we're starting to come out of the fog. We definitely don't have the clarity that we know will come with time, but each day is making a little more sense than the last.

He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak.
Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall;
but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint. Isaiah 40:29-31

And now as always we simply have to entrust ourselves to God who is all powerful, all knowing, and who in all things works for the good of those who love Him and have been called according to His purpose.

We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed.

Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal. 2 Corinthians 4:8-9, 16-18 

We sit at his throne and wait. We wait patiently on the One who holds to world together. Even though very little makes sense right now, we commit our ways to the Lord, trust in Him, and trust that he will bring His will to pass.

Thank you to all of you who have walked with us so closely during this season. We feel the prayers of His people and have been carried by them. Please continue to pray for us as we move forward.